The first and most common means by which a changeling falls is a denial of his fae nature. Human one day and Kithain the next, he experienced a Chrysalis with no Kithain around to guide his way. He could not accept it. His mind can not handle the sudden change in realities, the loss of a form grounding in what he believed to be true. Where yesterday a library sat, today a castle made of shining glass stands, the guardian lions now live griffins. This can be to much for the human mind to handle. These lost are rarely recognized as most of them are missed upon their Chrysalis. When another changeling does find one she will often treat him as a particularly dangerous Autumn Person with more then their usual share of Banality. When they are identified, they are considered to be the definition of the Daunthain, Banality-corrupted Kithain bent on destroying all Glamour.
Ordinarily, the changed perceptions would not present a difficulty to the average Kithain. Either he would retreat into his seeming and forget or he would instinctively accept what he saw on a deeper level, even if he reacts with disbelief on the surface. Neither case occurs with the Lost. Instead, to the core of his being, he rejects as what he sees as absolutely unreal.
He chooses Banality. Rather than face the wonder of the new world, he withdraws into the comfort of the old. This is not like the retreat which leads forgetfulness and an eventual reawakening. It is a willing embrace. Because the Dauntain has not lost his knowledge of Glamour, such as it is, he can still see it, feel it, sense it.
This becomes a torment as his very sanity comes into doubt and so he seeks to destroy that which he cannot understand. In the case of those who are newly aware of their nature, they may consider themselves to be utterly insane, their world suddenly turned topsy-turvey, Everything they know is not only utterly wrong, it contradicts everything they see now. To avoid this, they construct a fantasy world around themselves, which is, ironically, as close to their perception of the "real" world as possible. The Dauntain now believes that he has discovered some from insanity which he must stop. Quite often, this desire to fight madness extends to any Kithain he encounters. To this end, he will go to amazing lenghts simply to remove any Kithain. he will probably develope an intense hatred for all Kithain and possibly even a revenge komplex, believing them responsible for dragging him into this horrible, unreal world which he cannot ever escape.
In either case, the lost will begin to build elaborate schemes and self-deceptions to justify their actions to themselves and others. They can be quite Byzantine in their thinking in the simple effort to avoid the truth of the world around them. Possible therapy for the Lost involves making them see the truth to existence, bringing them back into the fold.
Apperance
The Lost, when they have a fae apparance at all, look like famine victims. Their appearance will not be much different from their seeming, yet it is obvious that they are cut off from that which gives them sustenance. With each Kithain destroyed, the Lost grows even more gaunt and unhealthy until he is finally Undone.
Outlook
Kithain: Poor, deluded fools. They must be brought into the light of reason and made to understand that the dream world in which they live is just that: the stuff of fantasy. Our methods maybe be harsh, but we ground them in solid reality when we're through with them.
The Cursed: They're lost in their awe fantasies, just like those crazies who are trying to recruit me into their dream world. The difference is these are dangerous psychopaths.
Black Magicians: Self-deluded powermongers who'll do anything to get bigger piece of the pie. Too bad they don´t understand they are grasping at clouds.
Nihilists: This is foolish to waste away to nothing. What good does that do? If you don't act to improve the world, you´re part of the problem.
Apostates: They spout nonsense and fancy. Just like the others, they need help before they spread their delusions to others.
Typhois: It's often typical of those who have been afflicted with mental illness to attempt to pass the blame along to others. But to try to lay blame for being cured? Sad.
- Autumn, dreaming
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